Waiting Room

You know her

The chick that turns every room into sterile, cold beautifully decorated waiting room
Waiting on the phone to ring
Waiting on an invite to this that or the other
Waiting on a compliment
Waiting for a reason to wear red get em' girl nail polish
Waiting on him, whoever he is

Sigh......

We are her

The women that wait on our proverbial Clark Kents
Waiting on someone to ask us if we need help
Waiting on a compliment on our clean kitchen (Girl yo' kitchen smell like bleach)
Waiting on Calgon or its most reliable substitute to take us away
Waiting on a reason to smile as big as Miss Celie after somebody seemingly called us ugly with lack of phone calls, invites and compliments

Sigh.............

I am her

But at least I'm in recovery...That counts for something right?

Sitting in the waiting room...waiting on my name to be called
Ms. Anxious, Miss Desperate, Mrs. Willing to Settle, Ms. Pitiful this way please...

It may take more than 12 steps to help me though
Because I've realized I've been waiting all my life
Waiting on hugs from men who don't know my name but call me Boo and Shawty
Waiting on big strong shoulders to catch my hot tears
Waiting on my derriere to magically become more voluptuous so SOMEBODY could notice it : )
Waiting on mind-blowing conversations that lead to more mind-blowing conversations because my mind needs to reach actualization too...

Sigh...

So who is she waiting on?

What are we waiting on?

What am I waiting on?


I'm not really sure
But this waiting room, this self-created incubator of worry, doubt and self-pity
Is becoming too enclosed for the hope that is said to spring eternal in my spirit
It's too quiet for the song that I catch my ventricles humming on sunshiny days
Just too dang sterile for the colors in my dreams...neon browns and electric blues

Like the lady who sang the blues and in the Wiz wore Dorothy’s shoes
I'm coming out
Soon, no doubt
From this cold, sterile tastefully decorated
Waiting Room
And if you're not there
Well
Oh, Well

I have people waiting on me

~Browngem